Violet (subterranean69) wrote in ethandarling,

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Life Blows!

So last night was pretty bad, except I must admit I feel better since I talked to Mallory. She really is great. Anyway, my plans for the day sort of fell through. You know, the whole "sit around, watch HBO, wait for Jeff's call" thing? A couple of hours ago, when I was just getting into some weird movie on television, I got a call. This call, however, wasn't the one I had been expecting.

I sometimes ask myself why things never turn out the way I want them to. Why can't people understand that I am the way I am and that's not going to change? Hm, wait a minute. Let me tell you who was on the other end before I get deeper into this.

My mother was calling from her job. She works this boring little desk job as a secretary over at this semi-successful firm. You know, the type that isn't poverty stricken, but isn't quite buying shares on wall street? Imagine that. So I answer the phone and I was pretty shocked to hear her usual chipper voice ten-fold in excitement, and I almost dropped the phone from shock. I put down the bag of chips (I like the ruffled kind) I was holding and sat up straight on the sofa cushion so I could concentrate on just what she was trying to tell me.

When she calmed down and I finally got the big news out of her, my shock turned to disappointment and a hint of anger. It seems that my father mentioned I was having some trouble getting girls to notice me. My mother then overheard a coworker talking about her daughter having the same problems with boys. So yeah, you guessed it. I'm going on a blind date...with a girl.

For the first time ever, I wanted to strangle my mom. Yet I know she was only doing what she thought was right. My father knows better, though, he just can't accept it. Needless to say, I couldn't get back to my movie (or the chips) and now I've been lying on my bed staring at the white ceiling trying to make sense of my life. It's so screwed up. I think I've really fallen for Jeff and I think I'd die if I found it he felt the same way.

God, I don't think this day could get any worse! What will Jeff think of this? Should I tell him? I feel so torn. And how is this date going to turn out? I don't like girls in that way. Why can't my parents get that through their heads? I'm frustrated to the point of tears. I'd do anything to get out of this date. I even feel bad for the girl I'm going to meet. She has no idea what she getting herself into. I need some real guidance.

I wonder where Mallory is...and when is Jeff going to call?
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